Cover of The Flower from a Poisoned Seed – Illustration by David Loebman – Design by Eric Dale

The Flower From A Poisoned Seed

A Memoir of Childhood Trauma, Sexual Masochism, and Eventually, a Good Measure of Wellbeing.

“David overcomes a lifetime of shame to truth-tell about his fantasies and roleplays. With candor and care, tying his insights to Buddhist thought, he gives us a grand achievement of philosophy and personhood. The Flower from a Poisoned Seed is vulnerable and vibrant.”

– Tucker Lieberman, author of Ten Past Noon

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The Flower From A Poison Seed

In early adolescence, the Jonathan C. David discovers that, without having any choice in the matter, he has been saddled with ineradicable, violent erotic fantasies that are as troubling to him as they are exciting. After falling into long-term depression as a young adult, he meets a quirky and amiable psychoanalyst named Dr. Ganapathy with whom he embarks on a life-long quest, journeying into his inner world to understand the source of his unhappiness, and to right what is wrong.

Again and again, he explores his desires with other men in the BDSM community only to return to Dr. Ganapathy to examine his experiences. He learns of the origin of his conflicted sexuality in childhood trauma that had become bound up with his libido. Becoming increasingly at peace with himself, he finds his unique personal voice, with a distinct perspective on society and personal liberation.